New year, new me

As far as my memory goes, I've always been a list maker...
Starting of with my 5-year old self, constantly stealing empty notebooks from my father's drawers just to (filled with enthusiasm and uncontrollable upsurge of afflatus) put an incredibly creative title on a front page, write something down on one or two pages and then leave it forever, without any intention to continue the barely started work of mine. Throughout my short life I've tried to do absolutely everything from colorful jorunals and diaries, through inspiration books to my own novels and art albums. Everything ended up the same, tragic way that I sometimes associate with dying.
And the same goes with any other idea of mine - weight-loss plans, to-do lists, monthly goals OR new year's resolutions, which is the thing that brought me to this website on the cold, mid-winter afternoon while I was enjoying the sweet laziness of my winter holidays.

(I will improve my editing skills, don't worry)

December has always been kind of a one, giant melancholic reflection for me. The sense of upcoming year impacted my brain in a very strange, dangerous way that most of us tend to experience at that time. I remember sitting down every night, thinking about everything that was wrong - with me, with people that surrounded me, with the world in general and also things that I wanted to try, places that I wanted to visit, all the experiences and dreams that I did not achieve in the last 365 days.
As a absolutely logical and unavoidable consequence, my New Year's Resolutions were born.
Everyone has them, hardly anyone actually keeps them. This is the sad truth that, not only do we have to realise, but also draw some conclusions and finally stop making the same mistakes year after year.

After having a closer look at some of the common experiences (mostly mine) I've totaled up most of my brilliant conclusions and put them in a form of 3 simple steps, that helped me survive the 2015 "new year, new me" bustle.

#1
 There is not such a thing as "New Year, New Me", because (quite simply) THERE'S ONLY ONE YOU. I find these endemic, completely generalized labels that we hear all the time utterly pointless. Because no matter when and what kind of person you used to be, it has always been you. I don't believe in changing. I believe in growing and creating. When I think about myself three years ago, I like to consider the long, complicated way that I made to be the kind of person I am right know and how it impacted my life, rather than changes themselves. 

#2

Instead of saying "I will" why not change the 

form a tiny bit and say "I am"?
I AM an open, positive human being.
I AM not holding myself back from spending time with people and going out of my comfort zone.
I AM blocking all the stress out.
I AM eating healthy, doing sports that I love and going outside way more often.
I AM the most self confident person the world has ever seen (alright, maybe not, but you get the point)
Sounds way more uplifting to me!

#3
 Remember that going from 2014 to 2015 was literally going from wednesday to thursday.
Your life did not stop or turn around.
You are not more mature than you were a week ago.
You did not break any habits that you've been dealing with a few hours ago.
It is just a matter of a day. Or a little, inconspicuous number in a date. Not your entire life. 

Resolutions should remain long-term and be enforced ONLY when you feel absolutely sure and ready to embrace them. So if you haven't already, sit down in your favorite place, relax, supply yourself with a snack or beverage and think about everything that makes you unsatisfied with your life. Find a viable solution to all of those awful factors and treat them as personal goals of yours, approached step by step without any rush. 

- Camila